I disagree. It is a word that should never be used lightly. Ever. But no one should be told they are not allowed a feeling because it isn't a nice word to say, or a nice way to feel. You cannot control the way you feel. You can sugar coat it. You can pretend. You can lie your ass off. But if you hate someone in your life more than you like that person in your life, own it. I don't think you absolutely have to express it to that person, or to anyone else about that person, but I also don't think polite society or religious constraints or someone else's idea of values should force anyone to lie to him or her self about the way they feel. That's bullshit and destructive.
I have had a really bad few months. Well, let's be honest. Years. I have come to the decision to stop trying to please every other person that is remotely connected to my life and think a little more about myself and how I feel. Of course every time I am honest and stop taking shit, I get reamed, or yelled at or treated like ass for it. Oh well. If I can't be true to myself and my feelings then I might as well be mute, deaf and blind. Some probably would rather it that way, in fact I am sure certain people would. I don't live my life for them anymore. It's my time to be honest with myself and those around me. I deserve that.
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I can't tell you how much I agree... Sometimes 'it' just sums it up. Don't be afraid of it and don't over use it... just own it.
I've learned over time that "putting myself out" for others occasionally gets me burned. Some may call it selfish... I call it preservation and I think I am entitled. Ashli, I think you are entitled also and if they can't stand the heat... tell them to get the fuck out of your kitchen!
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